working mom

 I recently watched  a new movie with Sarah Jessica Parker called "How Does She Do It" where she plays a high powered business woman and mother of two, and it hit me that in 3 short days I will become a working mother!!! And the very idea of that scares the crap out of me.

Elliot and I have a great routine going and we are going to mess that all up so that I can go to work. We will have to change his schedule to fit within mine now.  He and I will no longer be able to sleep in, no more showering at noon for the day, no more leisurely afternoon walks together. His schedule will have to be a bit more rigid in order to accommodate my new work schedule.

I never pictured myself as a stay at home mom, even when I was pregnant I always knew that I would go back to work, but I just never knew how fun it would be staying at home. I enjoy spending the day reading Dr. Seuss books and singing twinkle twinkle little star, (Elliot never judges my singing voice), I like cooking for my husband and cleaning up around the house when Elliot naps.  Its strange to me how rewarding staying at home has been because I never expected to feel this way.

The last three months have been the hardest yet most rewarding in my entire life,going back to work is opening a new chapter in my life. I will now be a working mom, juggling mommy hood and my career. I know that time will make this transition more bearable, and that at the end of every day my son will be waiting at home with a sweet smile for me!

Newborn Phase is Over

The newborn phase is over and now Elliot is beginning to develop a personality, and it is so fun! He is no longer happy to be in the corner sleeping in his swing, or just napping on mommy's shoulder,  he wants to be apart of the action. He prefers to be sitting up (with assistance of course) on some ones knee facing the action! He does not hesitate to make make his needs known, he will fuss or cry now until he gets exactly what he wants.

Meal times in the Holleran household consist of Elliot usually crying in the background while Ted and I try to enjoy our meal. Unfortunately once the screaming starts we start scarfing our food down so that we can get to the baby sooner, so it usually only lasts about 10 minutes on a good day. I can't wait until we can put Elliot in his high chair so he can join us at dinner time rather than crying in the background. Then the moment we put our plates down and walk towards him the crying stops because he knows that he is once again the center of attention!

As a newborn Elliot would frequently fall asleep in our arms or in his crib between feedings, but now he loves play time!!! He loves to sit up with mommy and daddy's help and look around the room, he has even started noticing the TV (not sure if this is a good thing or bad thing). The best part about play time is when we lock eyes and he gets a huge smile on his face, his smile just melts my heart! When he is on his play mat he often looks like is he trying to run in place or doing some baby kick boxing, he just doesn't stop wiggling and its adorable.

Conversations in our house are much different than they were even a few weeks ago. Many of them now include Elliot chiming in with little coos. Sometimes they are soft, sometimes they are loud and sometimes they more closely resemble grunting, but either way they make our conversations much more interesting!

Now that Elliot is becoming more interactive, of course I have to prepare myself to head back to work in a couple of weeks. I know the moment I leave the house I will be counting down the hours until I can get home and see Elliot's sweet smile.

 I mean really doesn't that smile just make your day???

Going back to work

In just over two weeks I will have to venture back to work and the very idea nearly brings me to tears just thinking about it. While Ted is counting down the days until he gets to stay home with Elliot I am dreading what is to come. Even though I know he will be staying home with his dad the very though of being away from Elliot for 10 hours breaks my heart into pieces.
Ted has been great about giving me time out by myself for a few hours whenever I need it so it's not like I have never left him but I have never been away from him for more than three hours. This week I am going to practice leaving him for a few hours longer just so I can get used to the feeling.
I know that I have to work to support our family but honestly I was really hoping that I would win the mega millions so that Ted, Elliot and I could all spend more time together!