Its 6 am on a Sunday morning and I am officially 5 days past my due date. Which is very typical from what I hear for first time pregnancies but that comes as no comfort at all. As you all know I started my maternity leave 5 days ago and I am so glad I did because I have spent the last 4 days with a horrible cold. I literally didn't even leave my house or get out of my pajamas for 3 days.
Being sick really made me glad that I didn't have the baby yet, but now that I feel human again, all I want is to go into labor. A small part of me is still holding out that I will go into labor on my own but I am pretty sure that the only way this baby is coming out is if I get induced. Friends and family keep telling me there is no way to know that I will have to be induced (and I hope they are right) but its just a gut feeling. I really don't want to be induced because its just so much harder than laboring naturally and it significantly increases your chances of a c-section which is my biggest fear. I hope my pessimistic attitude is just due to impatience, and that this baby will prove me wrong!
I have family in town right now and more coming in this week to meet the baby and I am so worried that I won't even have the baby by the time my out of state family leaves. I hoping that at my doctors appointment on Tuesday that we can set a date for induction for later this week, but my doctor might just make me wait until January 31st when I reach 42 weeks before she will induce me. I really hope that doesn't happen for my own selfish reasons and also because I want my family to meet the little guy so badly. It would break their hearts and mine to have traveled all this way not to even meet the little man.
Here is to hoping that my instincts are wrong, and that labor will start naturally and soon! OK my venting is done.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Yes I am still pregnant
Yesterday was the due date and we still have no baby and surprisingly I am OK with that. If you had asked me two days ago how I felt about it I would have given you a completely different answer but today I am alright with still being pregnant. The little man is still comfortable in there for now, but if nothing has changed by my appointment next week the doctor will start discussing and induction.
I don't know if it is the fact that I could be induced next week that has put my mind at ease or if its the fact that yesterday was my last day at work. As I have mentioned many times here before work has been one of the biggest stresses for me through out my pregnancy. I love my job but man doing my job pregnant is 10 times harder than it was before pregnancy. I think every pregnant woman deserves a damn medal, I mean seriously being pregnant is the hardest thing that I have ever done let alone working through the entire pregnancy.
I have gotten really mixed opinions about when to start my maternity leave. Until last week I had planned on working until I went into labor, but over the weekend I changed my mind. A few weeks ago I cut my hours back to part time which was amazing for a few weeks but I think I have reached the end of my rope and it was time for me to start my maternity leave.
I might regret this decision later when I have a week less with the baby but I really feel like this was the best route for me (plus Ted is thrilled, its a week sooner that he gets to cut back to part time). I feel so much more relaxed and OK with still being pregnant than I did knowing I had to go to work one more day. I had to give myself a pep talk every morning to convince myself that I could make it through the day. That's just not how I wanted to spend my last few days before my son arrives.
I am going to spend my last few days before the baby arrives, relaxing, cleaning and enjoying the last few days of silence that I will ever have!
I don't know if it is the fact that I could be induced next week that has put my mind at ease or if its the fact that yesterday was my last day at work. As I have mentioned many times here before work has been one of the biggest stresses for me through out my pregnancy. I love my job but man doing my job pregnant is 10 times harder than it was before pregnancy. I think every pregnant woman deserves a damn medal, I mean seriously being pregnant is the hardest thing that I have ever done let alone working through the entire pregnancy.
I have gotten really mixed opinions about when to start my maternity leave. Until last week I had planned on working until I went into labor, but over the weekend I changed my mind. A few weeks ago I cut my hours back to part time which was amazing for a few weeks but I think I have reached the end of my rope and it was time for me to start my maternity leave.
I might regret this decision later when I have a week less with the baby but I really feel like this was the best route for me (plus Ted is thrilled, its a week sooner that he gets to cut back to part time). I feel so much more relaxed and OK with still being pregnant than I did knowing I had to go to work one more day. I had to give myself a pep talk every morning to convince myself that I could make it through the day. That's just not how I wanted to spend my last few days before my son arrives.
I am going to spend my last few days before the baby arrives, relaxing, cleaning and enjoying the last few days of silence that I will ever have!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Just one more day?
Here I am January 16th, the day before my son's due date and still very pregnant. Every one I talked to thought that I would go early because my belly is so big (never say that to a pregnant lady by the way), but nope here I am almost to my due date. I am honestly at the point where I feel like I am going to have to be induced because NOTHING is happening on its own.
My ten year old sister Jett was guessing that the baby's birthday would be January 20th, the same as hers, and now I am thinking she was the closest all along. This little guy is in there for the long run, he is just super comfortable.
Maybe I am wrong but I am guessing its going to be at least another week possibly two until my Dr will induce me and that's when this little dude will arrive! Trying to hold on to that last little bit of patience that must be within me somewhere.
My ten year old sister Jett was guessing that the baby's birthday would be January 20th, the same as hers, and now I am thinking she was the closest all along. This little guy is in there for the long run, he is just super comfortable.
Maybe I am wrong but I am guessing its going to be at least another week possibly two until my Dr will induce me and that's when this little dude will arrive! Trying to hold on to that last little bit of patience that must be within me somewhere.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Giving In
I have come to the realization that this little man is going to make his appearance whenever he is ready and I need to be patient. From my last post you all know that I am not patient at all, so this is becoming increasingly difficult every day. But I am surrendering to the baby...
I have accepted the fact that this little man is not going to show up a single day earlier than he is ready no matter how much spicy food I eat or squats I do. The more I think about it the more I realize I don't want him to come until he is ready. He is staying in for a reason and I need to let him cook until he is ready. After all the most important thing to me is that our son comes out healthy, so I am going to let him and the doctors decide when the best time is.
The next several days or weeks until this little one arrives will consist of cuddle time with my husband and as much relaxation time as I can squeeze in. Once the baby arrives I know Ted and I won't have the time to just relax and enjoy each others company the way that we have been able to, so I want to enjoy that as much as possible before we officially become parents. We are ready for the little man to make his much anticipated appearance anytime now, but until then I am just going to relax and let things happen.
I have accepted the fact that this little man is not going to show up a single day earlier than he is ready no matter how much spicy food I eat or squats I do. The more I think about it the more I realize I don't want him to come until he is ready. He is staying in for a reason and I need to let him cook until he is ready. After all the most important thing to me is that our son comes out healthy, so I am going to let him and the doctors decide when the best time is.
The next several days or weeks until this little one arrives will consist of cuddle time with my husband and as much relaxation time as I can squeeze in. Once the baby arrives I know Ted and I won't have the time to just relax and enjoy each others company the way that we have been able to, so I want to enjoy that as much as possible before we officially become parents. We are ready for the little man to make his much anticipated appearance anytime now, but until then I am just going to relax and let things happen.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Patience
Those who know me best, know that patience is not my strong suit. I am perhaps the least patient person in the world. I am early everywhere I go because I just can't stand waiting around to do something, I just have to jump up and do it. I hate waiting to find out what my Christmas and birthday gifts because I just can't stand the anticipation. I am a person who hates any surprise if I know its coming because I just don't like waiting.
In normal life this exaggerated level of impatience is manageable because, well there aren't that many surprises in life that I can't some how convince some one to tell me. However being 9 months pregnant and not knowing the day that I will get to meet my son is practically killing me. Now that I am 37 weeks (full term) and I have the house ready for the baby I am so ready to meet him, but all I can do is wait.
If I could choose the day that I would go into labor I would because I just can't stand the unknown. Now I know I could schedule a c-section or an induction date but honestly neither of those are apart of my birth plan because they are not good for me or the baby, so I just have to wait it out. I am trying to fill my time with nesting activities like cleaning the baseboards and doing laundry and organizing the kitchen cabinets, I have even considered taking up a new hobby to help pass the time.
All my family and friends keep telling me that I won't make it to my due date, which is a lovely thought, but honestly no one really knows. I could go into labor in 3 hours or I could go into labor 3 weeks from now. So I am taking matters into my own hands...I am going to try everything I can to get this baby out (within reason). Walking, squats, eating spicy food, climbing stairs and so on. But I am going to limit myself to things that are 100% safe for me and the baby, as much as I want the baby here I want him healthy more than that.
Wish me luck and keep your fingers crossed that this wait isn't too much longer!
In normal life this exaggerated level of impatience is manageable because, well there aren't that many surprises in life that I can't some how convince some one to tell me. However being 9 months pregnant and not knowing the day that I will get to meet my son is practically killing me. Now that I am 37 weeks (full term) and I have the house ready for the baby I am so ready to meet him, but all I can do is wait.
If I could choose the day that I would go into labor I would because I just can't stand the unknown. Now I know I could schedule a c-section or an induction date but honestly neither of those are apart of my birth plan because they are not good for me or the baby, so I just have to wait it out. I am trying to fill my time with nesting activities like cleaning the baseboards and doing laundry and organizing the kitchen cabinets, I have even considered taking up a new hobby to help pass the time.
All my family and friends keep telling me that I won't make it to my due date, which is a lovely thought, but honestly no one really knows. I could go into labor in 3 hours or I could go into labor 3 weeks from now. So I am taking matters into my own hands...I am going to try everything I can to get this baby out (within reason). Walking, squats, eating spicy food, climbing stairs and so on. But I am going to limit myself to things that are 100% safe for me and the baby, as much as I want the baby here I want him healthy more than that.
Wish me luck and keep your fingers crossed that this wait isn't too much longer!
Friday, December 16, 2011
Working Mother
I am 35 weeks 3 days pregnant today!! Over the last weeks it has really hit me just how pregnant I am. Moving around has become increasingly difficult and sleeping through the night is just a funny thought. I think what is making this part of my pregnancy harder than anything else is work.
For those of you who don't know what I do.... I work an in home care agency for seniors coordinating the schedules. This week my company purchased one of our local competitors which increased our client base by about 25%. Needless to say this has been an insanely stressful time at work and I find that working at such a stressful job while 8 months pregnant is very difficult.
Don't get me wrong I love my job most days, and I love the company I work for but sometimes trying to handle this amount of work is just too much for this pregnant lady. I honestly don't know how people do it, pregnancy is a full time job of its own. Maybe this is just preparation for how busy and exhausted I am going to be one the little man arrives :)
I am really looking forward to my weekend! Just one more day!
For those of you who don't know what I do.... I work an in home care agency for seniors coordinating the schedules. This week my company purchased one of our local competitors which increased our client base by about 25%. Needless to say this has been an insanely stressful time at work and I find that working at such a stressful job while 8 months pregnant is very difficult.
Don't get me wrong I love my job most days, and I love the company I work for but sometimes trying to handle this amount of work is just too much for this pregnant lady. I honestly don't know how people do it, pregnancy is a full time job of its own. Maybe this is just preparation for how busy and exhausted I am going to be one the little man arrives :)
I am really looking forward to my weekend! Just one more day!
Friday, December 9, 2011
No One Talks about It
Every one knows that being pregnant is not always as pleasant , but the real truth is that its down right hard. Hard on your physically and emotionally, but there are so many things no one talks about but every woman should know:
1) You will not only grow in your belly, but your ass will also get huge
2) You will start to hate food because while pregnant you have to eat every 4 hours otherwise you feel sick
3) Every one knows that you ankles will swell up but for most women your hands, legs and wrists will also swell
4) You will think you have the energy to still hang out with friends through out pregnancy, but your social life will change drastically
5) If you aren't constipated then you have diarrhea
6) Hemorrhoids during the third trimester are almost universal
7) Even if you don't wake up in the night to pee you will wake yourself up when you have to roll over since its so much harder than it was pre-pregnancy
8) Fashion will become a thing of the past because you will not have the energy for it. In the third trimester you will just be trying to cover your swollen ankles anyway
9) It can be very lonely, friends with out children don't know how to act around pregnant people so they choose not to
10) you will be exhausted every day, all the time
And yet every minute of pain and frustration is totally worth it just to feel your baby wiggle from inside, I can't even imagine the joy that comes with meeting your baby the first time! I think pregnancy is just a preview of all the sacrifices that I will continue to make for my son the rest of my life, sacrifices i will be happy to make!
1) You will not only grow in your belly, but your ass will also get huge
2) You will start to hate food because while pregnant you have to eat every 4 hours otherwise you feel sick
3) Every one knows that you ankles will swell up but for most women your hands, legs and wrists will also swell
4) You will think you have the energy to still hang out with friends through out pregnancy, but your social life will change drastically
5) If you aren't constipated then you have diarrhea
6) Hemorrhoids during the third trimester are almost universal
7) Even if you don't wake up in the night to pee you will wake yourself up when you have to roll over since its so much harder than it was pre-pregnancy
8) Fashion will become a thing of the past because you will not have the energy for it. In the third trimester you will just be trying to cover your swollen ankles anyway
9) It can be very lonely, friends with out children don't know how to act around pregnant people so they choose not to
10) you will be exhausted every day, all the time
And yet every minute of pain and frustration is totally worth it just to feel your baby wiggle from inside, I can't even imagine the joy that comes with meeting your baby the first time! I think pregnancy is just a preview of all the sacrifices that I will continue to make for my son the rest of my life, sacrifices i will be happy to make!
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